i will praise you , Lord, with all my heart; i will tell of all your wonders.
i will be glad & rejoice in you; i will sing praise to your name, Most High.
psalm 9: 1-2
we had pips doctor matthews appointment this morning. i don't think matt & i have ever had sweaty pits like we did going into his office. yuck! we were on pins & needles. this was d-day...determining day. will our girl need bone grafting surgery or what will the next step be?
i could not imagine another date on the calendar, more 6 am check-ins, IVs, scars, medicines, pain, pacing the waiting room floor, trying to smile & make conversation but really wanting to be somewhere...anywhere else. then the "what if." what if i have our little finn before the surgery,or worse, during. i couldn't have a newborn, be there for recovery for our other baby...the list went on & on. matt & i have had a lot of sleepless nights heading up to today.
well, the first 2 lines of psalm 9 were on my lips as i drove away from the doctor visit today. dr.matthews is going to give libby claire a year, yes...a solid year to regenerate her bone. she will stay on her vitamin d & we will need to protect her skull, brain & head but NO SURGERY right now. he feels her bone might be regenerating on its own. only time will tell. we are more than willing to wait.
we thought she might need to be fitted for a more permanent helmet but dr. matthews thinks that the one (a blue hockey looking helmet) she has will be fine. she will need to wear it at preschool, church nursery and any other time matt & i can not be on top of her watching every move. for the most part at home she does not wear it. i look forward to the day when i can put our little girl down for nap & not worry myself into a panic that she might fall out of her bed, or bump her head on the headboard or get up & play around & fall without me being right there.
thank you for all the prayers lifted in our precious girls name. we covet those & believe fully that our Lord has a plan & purpose for this & we have watched it unfold in front of our eyes so far & will continue to do so. i have a grapevine wreath in our kitchen. every time i look at it i am reminded that the body of believers is like my grapevine wreath. all tangled, wrapped, intertwined but woven together in a beautiful circle. a continuous circle. we are grateful to you & cherish you more than you know.
now, back to our lives. we will have dr.mclanahan next week, her neuro-surgeon, then my doctor, then beau & mags will get the 2nd dose of H1N1. all the while waiting for our newest little one. libby claire has gotten some funny nicknames & we have gotten some weird questions from people during this. as of now, she has a kickin' mullet...which we now pronounce mulle', sounds french & much better than the billy ray classic. for everyone who wants to touch her head & asks how it feels, matt said it best this morning, she has a jellyfish head. it feels like a jellyfish, really!
i hope psalm 9 will be on your lips today & you will rejoice in your heart!